Thank You All So Much For Your Kind Words, It's Time For Me to Share!

[Still in Limbo]

Thank You ALL so much for your replies! They have been greatly appreciated, and I think I better get these problems out in the open and out of my system, before I go too deep into Depression. I want to Thank You all in advance for taking the time to read this, it may get a little long. As you all if not most know, I'm relatively a young Man, at 45. It is becoming more apparent to me from day to day that this spinal injury is going to someday not sure how long from now, totally immobilize me, and leave me in a wheelchair. To do that to me is like tearing out my Soul, I worked hard, played just as hard, and I'm coming to realize with this pain getting worse and worse those happy days may be gone forever. I was hoping to be able to fight this thing, learn to control this pain and get on with my Life, but with having to take my Father to numerous Dr. appts., and having my Grandson (7) every Tuesday, along with the normal things Life throws your way, I am becoming even more limited than I though I was.

My Father is a strapping Man, 6 foot tall, a Carpenter and Foreman in the Steel Mill for Years, and just turned 69 on the 13th, and it absolutely breaks my Heart to watch him go through what he's having to deal with. He has a problem with retaining Iron in his Blood, and he has a Blood Loss problem that 20 some odd Tests and approx. 10 Dr.'s cannot find. He's been fighting this for some time now, but it starting to really effect him, and I can't stand to see this Strong and Proud Man ever so slowly start the downhill climb. I lost both of my In-Laws whom I had been around since the age of 15, both within the last 4 years and I Loved them just as much as I Love my own Parents. Now I'm watching another Parent struggle, and all I can do is try and be there for Him, I take him to every appt. and spend as much time with him as possible, we only live 1/2mile apart.My Son has been helping Him do the work He can no longer do, and I have a Brother Local that is absolutely a waste of skin, and another Brother in Va., and helping my Parents to me is not even in the least considered a burden for me, They are my World and I am glad, no matter how much pain I'm in to Help.

I just have to set sometimes and wonder, what in Gods Name did I do to have these things happen, I know everyone has Burdens, but why am I being Tested so much with the pain and Monetary Problems I also have to deal with??? I lost two very very Dear Friends also in the last Year, one to Suicide, and one in a Motorcycle Accident. Money Problems have caused a strain in my Marriage, and not being able to do the things I used to with my Wife has also added to all of this. Now let me tell you, I've been with this Girl since the Age of 15, and She has stepped up to the Plate and works to help our income, and Her Job is not easy. She deserves so much more than I can give Her right now, She used to play just as Hard as me right by my side, Motorcycle Riding, Antique Hunting, Going to the Gun Club, Vacations, and the list goes on, and she has lost soo much and can do so little now because of my Condition. I help around the House as much as I can, and I try to do as much with Her as I can, but again, I can see these things getting farther and farther away, I'm getting more Limited.

She deserves absolutely anything in the World She desires, she has stuck by me through thick and thin, and with w/c playing their games and me not being able to work, and not being Healthy enough to take Her the places we used to go, She is suffering just as much as I in my book. She doesn't complain much, She's a Jewell, but I know I should be giving Her more and right now I just can't. I've given you the gist of where I stand Emotionally and Physically, and I sure hope you understand why I haven't been around much lately. I'm a fighter, and I will come out on top, but My Dear Lord the Hills I have yet to climb are soo High I just can't see the Top right Now. Please Pray for me, I have never asked anyone in my Life that before but right now I need you all to just ask the Lord to allow me the ability to find the Power to Battle on, and get my Head above the Clouds again. I'm going to stop now, I could go on for another Hour, but that wouldn't Benefit anyone. Thank You My Family, and when I can I'll be back, I just felt you all deserved an explanation as to where I've been and why. God Bless You All, I hope your Pain is minimal, and your Happiness High!!!

[red1030]

Limbo...take care my friend. Come home for support anytime you need to talk to us. And just know you didin't even have to ask for us to sent up the prayers. The first day I noticed that you were not here as usual, my prayers were climbing their way to heaven. The Lord is with you and he will give you the strength to battle every hill top. You will end out on top.... you are a hero in my book.... Red Carol

[sweet tooth]

i dont have any words that would ease your pain other than we all love you and are praying for you sometimes it feels like our burdens are too heavey but he said they would never be more than we can bear and who is it says GODS NEVER LATE ?

[Pooh]

Still

I understand where you are coming from, I really do. The pain alone that you deal with is enough to put someone into depression.

As far as your relationship with your wife goes, sounds like she is truly a gem. She loves you dearly that is for sure. Now there are many ways to show someone that you still love them without the normal way - if you get my drift.

I am sure that you can find ways to figure that way.

As far as your Dad - I am sorry to hear of his medical condition. I know there are many different things that can cause problems - maybe a good rhuemmy and endocologist can figure it out. sometimes it just takes time to figure out what is going on with some of what is going on in the body.

My prayers are with you

[Spring]

Still..I am here my friend....you have my prayers.

[Bummer Knees]

Limbo after reading your post two things comes to mind; you are a strong and caring individual.

Please remember, the Lord gives us no more then what we can deal with, and in the end it makes us a stronger person.

Your wife sounds like a wonderful and understanding lady, share your feeling with her and talk to her from the heart.

Please keep us posted on how your Father is doing.
My father had polio as a young child. As he got older he has developed post polio syndrome, watching him struggle has been tough.
I very much value the time I have spent with my Father.

I can only imagine the pain you experience daily. Please remember that stress will only make your pain worse.

You mentioned on an earlier post that you were on getting a scooter, how is that going?

When it comes to money worries, please remember the agencies and churches. Post area United Ways have an online resource page.

I will be praying for you & your family.

Bummer Knees

[Tuffy]

Limbo, All that I can say is ONE DAY AT A TIME, You are in all of our thoughts and prayers. Come on any time and talk as we are here to listen.

[MJC]

Limbo,

My heart is truly aching for you and your family. You will always be in my prayers and there will be extra one's for you at this time. Just hang with it my friend, you are stong willed and will make it through this. Always remember, "If the Lord brings it to you, he will see you through it." You see that little flying angel next to my name, it will also be flying around like your Penquin to look after you. We all love you dearly and await your return. My heart goes out to you.....but I also know in my heart you will be alright. May the Lord take you in his loving arms and carry you through these difficult times. PM me if you feel the need to anytime. Take care and God Bless you and your wife.

Loving Cajun Hugssssssssssssss,
MJC

[Deb]

Limbo, I am so sorry for all the added grief that you are dealing with. I lost both of my parents within 9 months of each other one to cancer and one to a heart attack. I watched my mom dwindle away to a vegetable before the good Lord finally took her home and I know where you are coming from. The horrible empty feeling that was in the pit of my soul knowing that there was nothing I could do to heal the person that healed every hurt that I ever had. It really seems to rip away at a person. Then on top of that you are dealing with everything else. You know for sure my friend that you are already in my daily prayers and I will throw in a couple special prayers for you too.

May God Bless,
Deb

[monster]

Please know that you and your family are in my prayers Limbo. You are going through so much that I am at a loss for words. My roomie/ex husband is making to many red blood cells, they have to draw a pint or two of blood out of him once a month or so. It took them a bit to find this problem but once they did it has helped and they are not having to do it so often now. I hope they will figure out your fathers problem soon. God bless you and your family. You have our prayers and know we are here for you when you need to talk or vent.

Big hugs,
monster